Yes, Runaway from your dreams

 Human mind is full of faults and it's program code has many bugs.. yet to go through test run by infees.. the shoelace of my badminton kit is a better thinker than this glamorousy portrayed human mind. 

The lace knows it's job, it does and keeps quiet !

No side business, no hidden agendas, no emotional atyachar, no "aspiration" basically no bullshit. 

We like our dreams only because they are unfulfilled. The moment we approach our dream, we get scared and just change the dream. So, we have something to crib upon. We are not chasing our dreams... Infact our dreams are chasing us and we are running away from them .. thanks to that sloppy programmer who wrote the code for it !

I like Katrina Kaif a lot.. like really really I would have proposed her if at all I have met her in teenage. One probable reason for this confidence is that she will definately refuse it.. whatever I propose . A relationship, a coffee, an autograph.. whatever. Confirm Refusal was my strength to dream of her.

I am equally sure in same era, if she would have proposed me, I would have fainted by happyness but would have said NO.. please don't bring my surname inbetween us.. the reason would have been 'sudden realisation of practicality' ! 

The dream doesn't walk on the path. It just shows the destination. We like it, but as we walk on path, hardly we want that destination for such a hard road... The reality and practicality to live every moment on the hard road is so tiresome, manipulative that we modify our dreams midroad. A slight deviation is sure. And we call it "mature decision" .. ofcourse, we have evolved between young age and bald hair round belly age, so convincing the world and ourself that changing the goalpost doesn't matter is what we do in blink of an eye... 

Afterall, this modern city world trains us for this only task precisely. No hypothetical stories, I have just came at the crossroad which I had envisioned and dreamt for past decade.. and I have just now refused the path which goes straight uphill to my dreams because it was too slippery and taken the other one . Still a beautiful one, and dream for someone else.. but wasn't my first choice indeed.

Human mind and brain make a deal with each other, create an allies as our "protectors" and roll, twist, slide our life the way they feel convenient. Thanks guys.. we are Hindus, we don't give a damn for the body yaar. We believe in that person within who is a transformer by theory.. he becomes human, cockroach, mosquito, dinosaurs and stays right here ! 

He is getting "mature" here for past 4crore years. And my body tries to cope up with this supernova maturity in 20 years ! No brainer that we loose.

Enough of discouragement you dreamers, I know you will rise from this ash, and chase it like a mad cheetah.. and you must ! Mind you, Carve your dream in a single line on a rock and have a courage to visit the rock after 25 years and don't say "oh my god, somebody must have thrown it in the river.. I just can't find it" !!!

The most (ir)relevant story !

 Around 8000 years ago, there was a wealthy n strong kingdom called Kishkindha.. exactly where current Hampi ruins lie. Hanuman was son of the senapati of the whole kingdom. Very strong, naughty and wealthy.

He and his friends had a habit to lift large boulders and run with them just for fun or exercise. Sometimes, saints and sages used to be doing meditation on those large rocks or boulders. Unintentionally, they used to get troubled by these activities.

One day, Maharshi Durwas was in deep sadhana when Hanuman accidently lifted the rock he was sitting on. Being known for anger, as expected he fell a spell on Young Hanuman that he will forget his egoistic powers unless and until external forces reminds him about those.

For large part of his accompaniment with Ram, Hanuman have not used his physical strengths because of this, until they all reached Rameshwaram and Jambuwant reminded him about it. 

Rest is the history we all know.

Cut to today, I am in Hampi. Writing this story sitting on one of the very boulders he might have lifted or stepped on. I did not heard this story here, I knew it from my childhood. But I never realised its relevance and application to today untill now !

Friends, we are all powerful in more ways than we can imagine. But... We need PT teacher to tell us "You are brave", we need our friends to tell us "you are beautiful", we need our brothers to tell us that "yes, you can do it". We need someone special to tell us that "you have it in you"

We are all Hanuman affected by Maharshi Durwasa someday. The time to come out of that spell is NOW.... We won't get Jambuwant by our side always. We don't need him. 

May be ... you are my external force, may be... I am yours... or may be... That force is within you.... Go for it !

..... Harshad.